rage
fury is blinding my intent
rousing jealousy and clinging my heartstring to past
the connection just isnt what it used to be
and i pale at
the very thought.
i want to see him
NOW
forget the bligrent jesters and their thrown away toys
but
caring comes to easy for me and my little girl
shoes.so i will pout and cry
for the only way we have changed is to hurt
more
and regret
what we didnt do.

not a clever girl

talking
to/ on a phone
realised change swallowed him whole
soffacted the lingering remains
yet all around us stale and same
noting but loud recollections
of near death experiances
and the
sun shone today
amazing
it caopture the glass on the window sill
and i never felt so pretty.
half asleep
i was kissed
i will
never forget

been a long time

been a while! sorry sorry!
im lazy and tired.
one of those-
haha
waiting for something
to eat!
saw paranormal activites
love/hated it if that possible
sure it is i just did it
aand damn those long melencoly windows they laugh at the trudgingmysteries of the spiraling footsteps
of my heavty bookbag
i can feel it
she said
its starting
not its too early
and find no sober carpets to rely on because
goddamn
all our floors are hard wood and i could sleep but all i said
was let the games begin.

relite

i will relite and travel
and hold the woods in my hands
i will change the world by eating my granola
and petting the cats while i get lost in the woods.
farms are dying and i live wit the
remainder of this endagered species called the
"worker"
our house is old and faded with collages of ideas and causes.

Another Grey

Worked more on school,
had an old old friend(if thats what we were) try to connect with me ..
he tried..
do i believe?
soon i will post my art.. just gimme time.

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a photomontage of people falling
could describe how i fell
from here and there onto your floor
at six in the morning
on your floor
knowing everlong was through
on your floor

Into Some Wild

So, all the cool cats are doing it, i figured i'd join.
A blog.
I watched into the wild a couple of days ago, a fantastic movie.
I wouold recommend it to any one, except maybe a blind person.
nah they can join into, the dialogue is too cool.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2LAuzT_x8Ek
Because i just left home for good, to travel and paint and photograph
i relate, and i bet even that blind dude in back would too.
i dressed up like bob dylan for this party down at the wild flower..
thats a cafe near me.
so i have to ask:
which would you rather have?
Relationships with people, or a relationship with god?